Pass Me Not

“…he hath no form nor comeliness; and when we shall see him, there is no beauty that we should desire him.”
‭‭Isaiah‬ ‭53‬:‭2‬ ‭

While all eyes are on you, Lord, in a dry and thirsty land, I will seek You.

A small crowd were gathered and standing near the ocean.

It was dark out, except for the light of the moon. Its glowing brilliance provided enough sight for a few miles out onto the water.

A young girl nearby shouted out to me, “Look! It’s Jesus!”

“Where?” I asked, allowing my eyes to search in the direction she had turned.

Out in the far distance out onto the water, she pointed to what appeared as a wooden rowboat.

Ok….??? I remember thinking to myself.

The group watched until the boat came ashore.

I discovered in what seemed the passing of an eternity, and in spite of my doubts, it was, in fact, Jesus.

But He did not look as I had expected.

He did have the long, shoulder length hair you see in the pictures and stories of Him.

But He wasn’t handsome at all. Just exactly as the scriptures say.

He climbed out of the boat onto the sandy shore and eventually made His way to the few curious onlookers.

There was some sort of hut a few of us huddled into at that point.

Jesus came through the door.

The first person gave him a quick hug and hello.

And the next person reached out to shake His hand. Jesus took his hand and called him by name.

I was behind the second person. I hope He sees me— hugs ME. I thought.

In that very moment, He turns and aims his direction directly at me. Like He had read my thoughts and zeroed in on them. His gentle eyes locked on mine, and I could see and sense the intense love He had for me.

Love as clear as the night.

Pure as a dove.

I reached out and hugged Him. I tell him, “Jesus, I love you. Please help me love you more.”

My emotions scattered to the wind and I began crying hard. He stood still and let me hold on to Him while I emptied myself.

The special part is, He wasn’t too busy. To share this moment with me.

Even though the others were still there, it was as if it was just He and I alone.

I felt I was falling so short compared to the great love He had for me and felt a strong desire to do better.

I woke up.

It was a dream. The most beautiful incredulous dream.

“I’ve made up my mind. Until the darkness disappears and the dawn has fully come, in spite of shadows and fears,

I will go to the mountaintop with you—

the mountain of suffering love and the hill of burning incense.

Yes, I will be your bride.”

‭‭Song of Songs‬ ‭4‬:‭6‬ ‭TPT‬‬

How is your relationship with Him today?

How would you describe it truthfully?

Handshake or hug?

We all fall short. But He still loves. He’s never too busy to stop and let us cast our cares on Him.

He’s never too busy.


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